Throw back 2019:
Well I had fallen into my "basement' once again, as Iyalna Vanzant would say according to her book "Value in the Valley". I had made so much accomplishment in my life but there was this one thorn that remained with me,in my side. This thorn would become dull and sometimes go under my radar but it was always there. I had great times and basement times but no matter my time and progress it was there. I am not sure if I just had trouble getting over my thorn or I needed the thorn because it became a part of who I was. This thorn is my disconnection from my body with led to being overweight, unfocused, moody and overall suppressing my true self. I knew I needed to make some more lifestyle changes. I say, more, because my husband and I have been eating healthy off and on since we were teens Fasting, Enemas, periods of no meat, periods of juicing and periods of eating what we wanted, as well ,was how we lived our life,for the most-part. However it wasn't until the ripe age of 43 that I realized, I mean really realized I didn't know my body. I didn't know that very part of me that allowed 4 lives to be born into this world, that part of me that heals when I am sick, that part of me, that expressed joy, expressed pain, and that part of me that was a representative to the world. I didn't know her. 44 Raw is an opportunity to get to know your body that houses you sacred feminine energy. I am going raw to heal my body, release my pain, and reconnect to my sacred higher self.
44 Raw is a fasting & self initiation healing system
This is designed for Woman wishing to enter and tap into her phoenix mysteries. Her ability to continuously die and be reborn. Her ability to give birth to herself from her very own ashes. This is not just about weight loss ,trust me, I had to go through more then shedding a few pounds. I had to detach and release dead spiritual energies that filled the holes of my energetic body. The holes where there for years and year from a little girl. I filled these holes by way of eating foods that filled me up and made me feel good then eventually bad. I filled these holes with entertainments and distractions and with plans and writing more plans that never reached full fruition. These were holes in my psyche and no matter what I did they were there. These holes are like spiritual festering wounds. Its like having a hole in the middle of your water bottle. You fill it up and fill it up but it will only get half full. I needed to fill them up and heal and close these holes. “This is my 44 Raw, this is my Transformation, and this is my Rebirth.”
May 2022 44 Raw Reboot
The first raw was good and I healed in many ways. After my mother passed away exactly one year today I am recovering from my grief and redefining myself after dealing with the empty nesters syndrome not to mention the midlife crisis thing. It all hit at once, before I knew it all the grandparents were gone and my four boys were all in their twenties and didn't need me as much. This just left me and my husband. I struggled this past year to find my balance because I had been a caregiver for so long and I suddenly didn't have anyone dependent on me. Needless to say I lost track of my weightloss and plateau back at my usually weight of 220. So Here I am with all the time to focus on myself going raw again. This time I hope to make it a lifestyle change of at least 80% after this cycle. Wish me luck.
REPLAY COMING LATER TONITE JUNE 1ST
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